Sunday, March 22, 2020

March 23, 2020


Special bows for today:
  • Please continue to offer bows for Jeff Ghazarian and his family; Jeff was a friend of Lilliana Mendez-Soto’s nephew; he died on March 19th at the age of 34 from COVID-19
  • Please continue to offer bows of well-being for Carmen Ibanez, Lidia Luna’s mother, who had a successful surgery yesterday for sciatica
  • Please continue to offer bows of well-being for Rev. Les Kaye, Misha’s Zen teacher, who is recovering from surgery on March 18th for bladder cancer
  • Please continue to offer bows of well-being for Brendan Haimson, Kate Haimson’s son, who is recovering from surgery on March 18th for a brain aneurism
  • Please continue to offer bows of well-being for Lilith Armitage, Shannon Bergman’s daughter who is recovering from knee surgery on March 17th


Wonderful links shared by sangha and friends:
  • From our dharma sister, Camille Spar:  Blood donations are much needed at this time. The Red Cross however is having problems keeping up with staff to accommodate drop ins. If you can donate, please call for an appointment. The Red Cross also needs people to drive and deliver blood. Volunteers must be able to lift 45lbs. Contact  www.redcross.org/volunteer
  • Stanford is also taking blood donations.   https://stanfordbloodcenter.org/donate-blood/


Contributed by Mary Hofstedt, a friend of the sangha:

Be patient toward all that is unsolved in your heart

and try to love the questions themselves,

like locked rooms and like books that are now written in a very foreign tongue.

…And the point is, to live everything.

Live the questions now.

Perhaps you will then gradually, without noticing it, live along some distant day into the answer.”

Rainer Maria Rilke

 

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Saturday, March 21, 2020

March 22, 2020


Special bows for today:
  • Please offer bows for Jeff Ghazarian and his family; Jeff was a friend of Lilliana Mendez-Soto’s nephew; he died on March 19th at the age of 34 from COVID-19
  • Please continue to offer bows of well-being for Carmen Ibanez, Lidia Luna’s mother, who had a successful surgery yesterday for sciatica
  • Please continue to offer bows of well-being for Rev. Les Kaye, Misha’s Zen teacher, who is recovering from surgery on March 18th for bladder cancer
  • Please continue to offer bows of well-being for Brendan Haimson, Kate Haimson’s son, who is recovering from surgery on March 18th for a brain aneurism
  • Please continue to offer bows of well-being for Lilith Armitage, Shannon Bergman’s daughter who is recovering from knee surgery on March 17th


Wonderful links shared by sangha and friends:


Contributed by our dharma brother, Dainuri Rott:

My Symphony
by William Ellery Channing

To live content with small means.
To seek elegance rather than luxury,
               and refinement rather than fashion.
To be worthy not respectable,
and wealthy not rich.
To study hard, think quietly, talk gently, act frankly,
to listen to stars, birds, babes, and sages with open heart,
to bear all cheerfully, do all bravely, await occasions, hurry never.
In a word, to let the spiritual, unbidden and unconscious,
grow up through the common.
This is to be my symphony.


Many thanks to those of you who are sending links and making comments, sharing your lives with everyone else... it is a gift beyond measure. Please know that you can either leave a comment on the blog itself, or send something directly to me and I will add it myself. Bows, Misha


Friday, March 20, 2020

March 21, 2020


Special bows for today:
  • Please offer bows for Jeff Ghazarian, a friend of Lilliana Mendez-Soto, who died yesterday at the age of 34 from COVID-19
  • Please offer bows of well-being for Carmen Ibanez, Lidia Luna’s mother, who had a successful surgery yesterday for sciatica
  • Please continue to offer bows of well-being and recovery for Rev. Les Kaye, Misha’s Zen teacher, who had a successful surgery on March 18th for bladder cancer
  • Please continue to offer bows of well-being and recovery for Brendan Haimson, Kate Haimson’s son, who had a successful surgery on March 18th for a brain aneurism
  • Please continue to offer bows of well-being and recovery for Lilith Armitage, Shannon Bergman’s daughter who had knee surgery on March 17th 


Wonderful links shared by sangha and friends:


“Perhaps the secret of living well is not in having all the answers, but in pursuing unanswerable questions in good company.” Rachel Naomi Remen

I think that this is a very encouraging idea given that we are all swirling in the midst of unanswerable questions right now.  Even the most reliable sources (the World Health Organization, for instance) admits that the scientific community is still in a state of searching for answers (although if you want to read an up-to-date and accurate study go to::   https://www.imperial.ac.uk/media/imperial-college/medicine/sph/ide/gida-fellowships/Imperial-College-COVID19-NPI-modelling-16-03-2020.pdf )

There is comfort in knowing that it’s okay not to know—it’s a relief actually to realize how very little we really know about our world and that there is no way any one person could contain all that information.  It’s encouraging to realize that, in fact, the only reason we know as much as we do is that centuries of scholars, scientists, and philosophers have shared their individual knowledge with everyone—proving, yet again, how interconnected we are, how reliant we are on each other, and how this idea of being a separate independent self is a delusion.  Everything we do, say, and think affects everything else in ways we can’t begin to imagine…what happens in Wuhan affected the world 10,000 miles away.

Perhaps, as Remen suggests, sharing our uncertainty and anxiety about this new and uncharted territory is the best thing we can do for each other right now.  Perhaps this is how we each offer our best selves in the midst of personal anxiety and fear of a future that is rapidly approaching:  by listening deeply, by sharing our concerns, by doing whatever we can right here in this moment, ‘pursuing unanswerable questions in good company’.

Many thanks to those of you who are sending links and making comments, sharing your lives with everyone else... it is a gift beyond measure. Please know that you can either leave a comment on the blog itself, or send something directly to me and I will add it myself. Bows, Misha


Thursday, March 19, 2020

March 20, 2020


Special bows for today:
  • Please offer bows for Jeff Ghazarian, a friend of Lilliana Mendez-Soto, who died today at the age  of 34 from COVID-19
  • Please offer bows of well-being for Carmen Ibanez, Lidia Luna’s mother, who will be having surgery today for sciatica
  • Please continue to offer bows of well-being and recovery for Rev. Les Kaye, Misha’s Zen teacher, who is had surgery two days ago for bladder cancer
  • Please continue to offer bows of well-being and recovery for Brendan Haimson, Kate Haimson’s son, who had a successful surgery two days ago for a brain aneurism
  • Please continue to offer bows of well-being and recovery for Lilith Armitage, Shannon Bergman’s daughter, who had knee surgery two days ago

 “The opposite of death is love.  Only love can turn mere life into a miracle and draw precious meaning from suffering and fear.” Nando Parrado

I remember exactly where I was when I first read these words in Parrado’s book, Miracle in the Andes.  I had just left New Zealand and was in Fiji for the last two days of a long holiday that ended in a disaster.  I had been stung by a bee on South Island, two hours from the closest hospital with nothing but my Epipen between me and suffocation—I have no allergies except a fatal one to bees. 

We had just driven through one of those tiny towns with only a pub and a small store when a bee flew through a crack in the window and stung my hand.  My husband turned the car around and raced back to the little town and the pub—the only thing open between Christmas and New Year’s Day—to ask for help. Within minutes the town went into action, calling the local nurse practitioner and the fire department to the rescue while my husband jabbed my thigh with the Epipen—I was so scared that I never noticed the pain of that enormous needle.

The next thing I knew there was a giant of a woman in the neon yellow of a fireman’s overalls with tattoos all over her arms and shoulders, leaning into the back seat to say in thick New Zealand English, “How’r youuu dooin’?” When I replied that I was not great, she replied, “Doon’t yuu woorey…weee’re goin’ ta taik caare of yuu.” I confess that I was not feeling reassured in that moment, but it all came true just as she said.  The clinic was opened, the nurse practitioner arrived to start an IV, and then I was whisked away for a two-hour ambulance ride back the way we had just come…by which time I was pronounced fine, except for an enormous amount of epinephrine in my body. 

The next week was a physical roller coaster—my body felt jittery all the time, I couldn’t sleep, food made me nauseous—and our carefully laid vacation plans had to be completely rethought.  We had planned to stay in Fiji on the way home just to make the final flight a little shorter--and that is how I ended up lolling in a small outdoor swimming pool (at a resort that wasn’t even my own) and sitting in the shade of its portico with warm breezes wafting through while reading Parrado’s book.  It was one of the most ironic reads of my life: relaxing in paradise, while in the book Parrado and his companions were suffering from freezing weather, starvation, and no rescue in sight after a plane crash in a remote area of the Andes.  Only his unquenchable love for his father kept him going—the thought of his father’s suffering from believing him dead drove him past the limits of human endurance until he miraculously found his way home.  At the end of the book he wrote, “The opposite of death is love.  Only love can turn mere life into a miracle and draw precious meaning from suffering and fear.” I remember reading those two lines over and over thinking: usually we think the opposite of death is life.  But what is life without love? 

While my own misadventure was not horrific or physically terrifying like Parrado’s experience, the possibility of death was very real the day of the bee-sting. But through the kindness of strangers, and love that didn't need to be personal to be real, my own suffering and fear showed me the truth of Parrado’s words.  I will never forget the tattooed fireperson in New Zealand--she didn’t know me at all, but her first words were ones of love:  we’re going to take care of you. Over the next few months, many of us are going to be connected to deaths from this virus—either personally or collectively—so it is crucial to remember that it is love that makes the difference, love that makes meaning out of our suffering and fear…and we need to keep saying to each other, “I’m going to take care of you.”


Wednesday, March 18, 2020

March 19, 2020


Special bows for today:
  • Please continue to offer bows of well-being and recovery for Rev. Les Kaye, Misha’s Zen teacher, who had surgery yesterday for bladder cancer
  • Please continue to offer bows of well-being and recovery for Brendan Haimson, Kate Haimson’s son, who had a successful surgery yesterday for a brain aneurism
  • Please continue to offer bows of well-being and recovery for Lilith Armitage, Shannon Bergman's daughter who had a successful knee surgery two days ago

Contributed by Diane Comey, our dharma sister in Kauai:
At forty, Franz Kafka, who had no children, was walking through the park in Berlin when he met a girl who was crying because she had lost her favourite doll. She and Kafka searched for the doll unsuccessfully. Kafka told her to meet him there the next day and they would come back to look for her.

The next day, when they had not yet found the doll, Kafka gave the girl a letter 'written' by the doll saying, "Please don't cry. I took a trip to see the world. I will write to you about my adventures."

Thus began a story which continued until the end of Kafka's life. During their meetings, Kafka read the letters of the doll carefully written with adventures and conversations that the girl found adorable.

Finally, Kafka brought back the doll (he bought one) that had returned to Berlin. "It doesn't look like my doll at all," said the girl. Kafka handed her another letter in which the doll wrote: "My travels have changed me." The little girl hugged the new doll and took her home, happy. A year later Kafka died.

Many years later, the now-adult girl found a letter inside the doll. In the tiny letter, signed by Kafka, it said, "Everything you love will probably be lost, but in the end, love will return in another way."

Reminder:  If you wish to make a comment or offer a contribution as Diane has done, click on the comment box at the bottom of this blog and add what you wish.  I am hoping that many of you will add your thoughts as the days go by.  Thanks, Misha Shungen!

Tuesday, March 17, 2020

March 18, 2020


Special bows for today:
  • Please offer bows of well-being for Rev. Les Kaye, Misha’s Zen teacher, who is having surgery for bladder cancer
  • Please offer bows of well-being for Brendan Haimson, Kate Haimson’s son, who is having surgery for a brain aneurism

      During my life I have had my share of natural disasters—floods, earthquakes, fires—and while these were often hard emotionally and physically, the kindness and generosity of both friends and strangers during these events has never ceased to amaze me.  Although we are now experiencing a different kind of disaster, it is still the case that I am witnessing everyday ordinary people being upright, kind, and courageous in the face of a very uncertain, even scary, time.  Yes, there are always the individuals who hoard 17,000 bottles of hand sanitizer or buy a 100 rolls of toilet paper at one time for their personal use, but generally what I am seeing right now are all the small gestures of love and attention—the offers to bring food to those who may need it delivered, the short visit (6’ apart!) with someone we love, the email or text asking that simple but important question, “How are you doing?”, the assistance with using technology with which we may not be familiar but may need in the days to come as we self-isolate—each one of these acts of kindness more than makes up for the greed of a few fearful individuals.

Fear is the real disaster. Fear is what separates us from each other, what causes us to feel anxiety about loss, loneliness, or death.  Fear is caused by our ignorance of the actual state of affairs: that we are completely interconnected to all beings…and always have been. Once we have an experience of this connection, fear’s stranglehold on our heart begins to loosen and our innate compassion and kindness has a chance to flow unimpeded.

Suzuki Roshi always maintained that the greatest gift a teacher could give his or her student was the gift of fearlessness.  I do not know how this gift is given or how it is received, but perhaps we can all just take a deep breath, jump headfirst into this uncertain time, and find it for ourselves.

P.S.--If you wish to make a comment or offer a contribution, click on the words at the bottom that say 'no comment'.  This will open a comment box and you can add what you wish.  I am hoping that many of you will add your thoughts as the days go by.  Thanks!
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Diane and Wing send you a gift from Hawaii:  https://youtu.be/xL4TBbkEkzI



Monday, March 16, 2020

March 17, 2020


Happy St. Patrick’s Day!
Special bows for today:
·        Please offer bows of well-being for Lilith Armitage, Shannon Bergman’s daughter, who is having knee surgery today
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Last night we entered a new world, a place where ‘shelter’ took on a whole new meaning when we were asked by local health authorities to ‘shelter in place’.  Normally this is an emergency category designed to protect us from the danger of toxic air from gas leaks or the smoke from terrible fires—not because of a concern that the very ‘normal’ air we are sharing might be harmful to our health. Naturally, this unseen enemy makes us all a bit nervous to be with each other, to occasionally cough or sneeze, or to even do that most basic of human activities: breathe. The government has told us to ‘shelter in place’ and we are actually relieved to go to that place where we feel the safest: home. 

In the famous movie, “The Wizard of Oz”, Dorothy runs away from home hoping to find a place with ‘no trouble’, somewhere ‘over the rainbow’.  The great revelation of her journey is in discovering that no such place exists—not in in her humdrum life in Kansas, nor in the amazing land of Oz where evil witches and demon monkeys live side by side with wise but cowardly lions and men of straw with wits of steel. Slowly but surely she begins to understand that her mistake was in wishing for things to be different than they were rather than finding her joy in where she actually was…which was home.

At the end she keeps repeating , “There’s no place like home, there’s no place like home…” while clicking her ruby slippers. Not because nothing bad ever happens at home—after all, that’s why she left in the first place—and not because the physical walls of her house were going to protect her from enemies, seen or unseen.  No, it is because Dorothy finally sees clearly that  home is her shelter from the inevitable tornadoes of daily life—it is where our loved ones (human and animal) live, where our friends share time with us, where we have created a sanctuary in which to rest and rejuvenate, and where we are surrounded by the things we love—books, music, art.

Take heart in ‘sheltering in place’. Enjoy being in your home with your loved ones. Read books, listen to inspiring music, practice yoga or dance joyfully, write letters, sit in meditation for long hours. Shelter in your heart and find your breath waiting for you.

P.S.--If you wish to make a comment or offer a contribution, click on the words at the bottom that say 'no comment'.  This will open a comment box and you can add what you wish.  I am hoping that many of you will add your thoughts as the days go by.  Thanks!
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Comment by Kathleen Dickey on March 15th: 
Dear Misha,
Thank you for starting this blog. I, too, am feeling so grateful in this time of whiplash news for seeking refuge on my zafu and in the sangha. bows, Kathleen
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Poem sent by Marya Shahinian to share with everyone:
Lockdown

Yes there is fear.
Yes there is isolation.
Yes there is panic buying.
Yes there is sickness.
Yes there is even death.
But,
They say that in Wuhan after so many years of noise
You can hear the birds again.
They say that after just a few weeks of quiet
The sky is no longer thick with fumes
But blue and grey and clear.
They say that in the streets of Assisi
People are singing to each other
across the empty squares,
keeping their windows open
so that those who are alone
may hear the sounds of family around them.
They say that a hotel in the West of Ireland
Is offering free meals and delivery to the housebound.
Today a young woman I know
is busy spreading fliers with her number
through the neighbourhood
So that the elders may have someone to call on.
Today Churches, Synagogues, Mosques and Temples
are preparing to welcome
and shelter the homeless, the sick, the weary
All over the world people are slowing down and reflecting
All over the world people are looking at their neighbours in a new way
All over the world people are waking up to a new reality
To how big we really are.
To how little control we really have.
To what really matters.
To Love.
So we pray and we remember that
Yes there is fear.
But there does not have to be hate.
Yes there is isolation.
But there does not have to be loneliness.
Yes there is panic buying.
But there does not have to be meanness.
Yes there is sickness.
But there does not have to be disease of the soul
Yes there is even death.
But there can always be a rebirth of love.
Wake to the choices you make as to how to live now.
Today, breathe.
Listen, behind the factory noises of your panic
The birds are singing again
The sky is clearing,
Spring is coming,
And we are always encompassed by Love.
Open the windows of your soul
And though you may not be able
to touch across the empty square,
Sing.

Richard Henrick,
Franciscan priest.
March 13th, 2020